D Day

So today is the day that my hip reconstruction surgery has been set in stone....June 1st. I get sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I have developmental hip dysplasia bilaterally but my left hip is worse. I had minor right hip surgery last May to repair a labral tear (that is basically the lining of the hip). Having that repaired help to fix the dysplasia in my right hip. My left hip had never bothered me up until that point, my right hip had been bothering me for several years. I went for my final post op follow up last September and casually mentioned that my left hip had started to "nag" me a bit. X rays were taken and Dr Olson came in and said "you need a periacetabular osteotomy." I need a what...google that folks...not fun! I have a friend who had had this surgery by the same surgeon almost 2 years ago. She has been a wonderful source of information. I'm having surgery at Duke by Dr Steven Olson. I will be hospitalized for approx 5-7 days and will be "out of commission" for 3 months. I have so many mixed emotions about this. I'm tired of hurting every day, not being able to sleep or play with my child as much as I would like to. "Sorry Landon, we have to go inside, mommy's hip hurts." I hate having to say that. I hate the fact that I'm going to have to be away from Landon while I'm in the hospital and that he's not going to understand why he can't jump on me or why I can't hold him. Why don't I wait until he's older? First, my pain has increased significantly in the past 6 weeks, I don't know how much longer I can wait and if I'm waiting for "a good time" there is never going to be one. There will always be a reason not to have it done at a certain time. I get sick to my stomach just thinking about having this done, I've never had a major surgery like this and I'm not too thrilled about having my bone sawed in half and screwed back together. My friend Brenna swears it's all worth it in the end....I hope so! I may have to call in for some Xanax before the time gets here. It's quickly approaching.

My Grandma got called back after a routine mammogram for further images. Normally this would not be so concerning but she has had 2 sisters battle and beat breast cancer. She got the notification today that she has to have a biopsy. This makes me nervous, especially since she hasn't been feeling herself the last few months. Say a little prayer for her as you go to bed tonight and for the nights to come. She is going to call her 99 year old doctor tomorrow and have him get her in a Duke, which is where she needs to be.

Our house is OFFICIALLY on the market. We have a prospect, hopefully she will come through. I would LOVE not to have a mortgage while I'm out of work for 3 months. Say a little prayer for that too.

I've been a bad blogger but life with a 21 month old doesn't leave much room for blogging. Until next time......

Whew....

...What a busy past couple of weeks. Work has been crazy and so has just life in general. I made a big step a couple of weekends ago, I let Landon go off with someone who was not related to him. MiMi, his teacher at school, took him to the Zoo in Asheboro. They left around 730 am and returned late in the afternoon. Joey and I were able to get some cleaning done that day (mainly our junk room aka office). As soon as Landon got out of the car, he started running towards me saying "mommy, mommy, mommy, the elephants, they drink water." He was fascinated with the elephants and penguins. I wish I could have been there for that first trip to the zoo but MiMi took lots of pictures. Even now when you ask him about the zoo, he tells you that MiMi took him to see the elephants and that they were drinking water. Such a smart boy.

We went to Spring Hope this past weekend, Joey had gone fishing with "the boys." I am a baby and refuse to stay by myself, so my mom came and picked us up on Thursday evening and we spent the whole weekend in Spring Hope. I can't wait until we are moved up there, I miss it. I NEVER thought those words would come out of my mouth, I'm choking on them as I eat them. I guess having a kid changes your perspective on things a bit. Who would have thunk it?!?! I am having some pretty major hip surgery in May so we knew we had to move in with my mom just from the support aspect of things. I have a 3 month recovery time and we are going to need all the help we can get with Landon and myself. My dad is going to give my brother and I 31 acres of land so I feel like it just makes sense that we move and have TONS of land for my wild child to play on. I took this past Thursday off and gave the house a good cleaning. Joey is off on spring break this week so he is doing "man chores" this week. I'm hoping we can get our house on the market this weekend. So if anyone knows somebody looking a house in Mount Olive, I've got one for ya.

So I think Landon might be turning a new leaf on sleeping. The past two mornings, I have had to wake him up....that has not happened in several months, since we took the pacy away. It's amazing the things that I get excited about. I just hope it will last and I can actually sleep past 6am on the weekends. When I got home today he smelled like "dirty little boys." This is the first summer where he can actually play and get dirty outside and I can sure tell he plays hard at school. He is even getting a little farmers tan already. HaHa, I love it. I actually felt like I had to scrub him in the tub tonight. No more skipping baths, he actually deserves one now. He's 100% boy for sure.

This has been a bunch of rambling I know, I have lots on my mind and lots of changes about to happen in my life....new house, big surgery, new job....whew.....we'll make it though and what's meant to be will be. Until next time......



P.S How bout them DUKE BLUE DEVILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!